My weak black and whites

I've been utterly tired the last few days to even think of making my little fingers work a tiny ounce to come up with a post....it's called being busy. Although it’s time to take a break but my new discoveries took me back remembering the times I pondered - thought about it.

I am sure everyone has had this moment in life. The ‘so near, yet so far’ one. As the old statement goes, ‘life’s uncertainties are indeed baffling, but that’s what life is all about.’ However, something that’s more annoying than the uncertainty is the fact that they are mostly controlled by others, and we are left with no choice. Say it in the case of the chocolate in the refrigerator to the marriage. The only respite in this: I am not alone...I had something with me and within me that can never be dodged.

It’s the void. It is that difficult situation where I sit there in silence. Silence that is even louder to be deafening....for some reason I do not have a say; but suddenly i tried to utter a few measly words and it stopped at the tip of my tongue. Damn silence. Slowly I recognized that I had to clear my thought cobwebs that distract me. I wanted everything to vanish and to stop in mid-air so i could stay in the world where the black and the white has no discrimination.

I own the me with all the abnormalities ! 

Some aspects come as pause in this not-so-happy experience which is definitely worth reliving. Remember those childhood days when all it took to cheer you up was a long drive in Appa's car or a cycle ride along an unexplored path? The weak hearted me had one of those days today.